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Dame ……Here I am again .

 2008 I achived 1 goal I quit smoking YES!!! good for me . Gained 20 pounds

Here it is 2009 I would like to say at the end of this year I lost 30 pounds …

Can it be done ?

 Can I do it ?

 Can I commit  my self to working out at least 4 to 5 days a week ?

Can I make good food choices?

When will I every be happy with me ? My body , the women I see looking back at me in the mirror?

Does anyone else feel this lost ?

WELL LET SEE ,THURSDAY’S MY HUSBAND PLAYS BASKETBALL AND HE TAKES OUR SON WITH HIM.. SO SIDNEY AND I GO TO KROGER AND GET A SALAD OFF THE SALAD BAR…WHY COOK…SO JUST LIKE EVERY THURSDAY I PULL INTO KROGER I’M TALKING ON THE PHONE TO ONE OF MY GIRLFRIENDS. I PARK WE GET OUT AS WE ARE WALKING TO THE DOOR I SEE THIS GUY PULLONG  IN ON A MOTORCYCLE…….OMG….. IT IS AN EX-BOYFRIEND FROM HIGH SCHOOL….HE LOOKS THE SAME AS HE DID IN SCHOOL NO GRAY HAIR, NO WEIGHT GAIN …….UNBELIEVABLE ……..PICTURE THIS I HAVE GAINED ABOUT 50LBS SINCE HIGH SCHOOL , I’ M WEARING A BAGGIE T-SHIRT , BLUE JEANS, AND MY HAIR IS PULLED UP IN A KNOT ON THE TOP OF MY HEAD ……..PLUS TOM STOPPED IN YESTERDAY…SO IMAGINE HOW FAT I FEEL..I WANTED TO JUMP BEHIND A CAR AND HIDE..I WAITED FOR HIM TO GO IN, THEN I RAN IN WENT STRIGHT TO THE SALAD BAR GOT OUR SALAD HEADING TO THE CHECK OUT I SEEN HIM……SO I DUCKED BEHIND A DISPLAY WHEN HE WAS OUT OF SIGHT I HEADED TO THE CHECK -OUT AND GOT OUT OF THERE.AS I’M WALKING  TO MY TRUCK THERE HE IS….I WAS SCREAMING INSIDE……I KEPT TALKING TO SIDNEY WE WALKED AT A BRISK PACE I DIDN’T MAKE EYE CONTACT GOT TO THE TRUCK JUMPED IN BUCKLE US UP ,AND HEADED OUT. I JUST COULDN’T BRING MYSELF TO TALK TO HIM……WHY IS IT WHEN YOU LOOK YOUR WORST YOU RUN INTO PEOPLE YOU HAVE NOT SEEN IN YEARS? WHY?

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BUDDIES I HAVE A LOT TO DO TODAY AND JUST WANTED TO SHARE MY EMBARRASSING MOMENT……HAVE A GOOD FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!

TODAY SHOULD BE A LITTLE MORE RELAXING THEN YESTERDAY?

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WELL THE DERBY HAS RAN ALL THE VISITORS SHOULD BE LEAVING TOWN AND TRAFFIC SHOULD GET BACK TO NORMAL……. WE DID TAKE THE KIDS TO SEE SPIDER MAN 3 THREE YESTERDAY  ………AWESOME I LOVE IT ,FULL OF ACTION ,KIND OF LONG ,BUT KEEP YOU ON THE EDGE OF YOUR SEAT.DID A LITTLE BIT OF SHOPPING BEFORE HEADING  TO A DERBY PARTY AND LOSING SOME MONEY.

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 MY HORSE IS STILL RUNNING SHOULD BE CROSSING THE FINSH LINE ANYTIME NOW.. I LOVE THE HORSE RACES NEVER WIN ANY MONEY. I GUESS I NEED TO LOOK A LITTLE MORE AT THEIR STATS INSTEAD OF THE COLOR OF THE HORSE OR THE JOCKEYS SILKS…STILL ALL IN ALL HAD A BLAST………

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TODAY NEED TO GET WITH THE LAUNDRY AND  HOUSE WORK….. THE NASCAR RACE WAS RAINED OUT LAST NIGHT LOOKING FORWARD TO WATCHING THAT AT 1:00 ……NEED TO GET SOME THINGS DONE AROUND HERE HAVE A GREAT SUNDAY…….

GOOD MORNING BUDDIES…….. FEELING DOWN TODAY DON’T KNOW IF IT’S GETTING CLOSE FOR TOM’S VIST, OR IF IT IS THE RAIN POURING DOWN HERE. WELL THERE GOES OUR DERBY WEEKEND PLANS RAIN FRI, AND SAT.

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OK, ALSO MY WEIGHT HAS TAKING A TURN IN THE WRONG DIRECTION.I JUMPED ON THE SCALE YESTERDAY FOR A SNEAK PEEK AGHHHHHH S#!T!!!!!! 2LBS MORE…….. THIS MORNING I FELT LIKE THROWING THE DAMN SCALE OUT THE WINDOW TO SOAK IN THE RAIN UNTIL IT SEES THING MY WAY………

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I MADE A PLAN MON AND HAVE STUCK WITH IT, ALSO HAVE DONE A LOT OF WEIGHTS THIS WEEK THAT IS THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME SANE.I HAVE BEEN SORE, BUT NOTHING LIKE I WAS YESTERDAY. LET’S TALK ABOUT ” SIDE BENDS” HAVEN’T DONE THEM SINCE “HUM” 4TH GRADE, AND WON’T DO THEM AGAIN…. MY BODY DOES NOT LIKE THEM….BY THE WAY THANK YOU SISSY YOUR PACKAGE COULD NOT HAVE SHOWED UP AT A BETTER TIME. THE ONLY THING MISSING WAS BEER….DON’T WORRY BUDDIES, MY HUSBAND HAD THAT COVER….YES, I HAD A COUPLE WHILE I MARINATED IN THE BATH. SLEEP BETTER LAST NIGHT, BUT FEELING THE GUILT THIS MORNING.

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I HAVE DECIDED TO CHANGE MY WEIGHT TICKER AFTER SUNDAY’S WEIGH IN TO REFLECT MY CURRENT WEIGHT. I HAVE BEEN BATTLING 2LBS. FOR WEEKS , AND NOW I HAVE 2 MORE LBS I GET TO BATTLE.

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I HATE THIS GAME I DON’T WANT TO PLAY ANYMORE

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 BEST OF LUCK BUDDIES………

I CHANGED MY PIC…….. I HAVE NOT LOST IN WEEKS AND NEED A CHANGE.. I NEED TO REMIND MYSELF WHO I’M DOING THIS FOR AND IF I SEE MYSELF I THINK IT WILL HELP. I DO SEE AND FEEL A DIFFERENCE AFTER LOSSING  13LBS AND I’M HAPPY ABOUT THAT,BUT I THINK I’M GETTING TO COMFORTABLE WERE I’M AT. I BELIVE MY SUPER HERO IS COMING OUT OTHER WISE I DON’T BELIVE I COULD BUT A FULL LENGTH PIC OF ME ON HERE. I HAVE SPOKE TO A FELLOW BUDDY I’AM GOING TO TAKE A HARD LOOK AT MYSELF, MY DIET, AND MY EXCERSISE TODAY. I NEED A CHANGE AND I NEED TO BE HONEST WITH MYSELF. THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. THANK YOU ALSO JAGS AND WILDCATS I KNOW YOU LADIES HAVE GOTTEN ME THIS FAR IT IS UP TO ME TO GO THE REST OF THE WAY. BEST OF LUCK BUDDIES……..

UPSET AND HAPPY ALL ROLLED INTO ONE….. LAST WEEK I WAS ON VACATION. WE HAD A GREAT TRIP TO GATLINBERG, (4 DAYS) THE  MOUNTAINS WERE ABSOLUTLEY GORGEOUS, AND THE WEATHER WAS MORE THEN I COULD HAVE ASKED FOR.

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THE KIDS WERE SPLENDID……. AS THEY GET OLDER I’M MISSING THE BABY STAGE , BUT ENJOYING THEM MORE AND MORE.THEY WORE US OUT WE TOOK IN SHOWS, MINI GOLF, GO-CARTS (UNTIL MY BUTT WAS NUMB), CHAIR LIFT UP THE SIDE OF THE MOUNTAINS, THE AQUARIUM, SHOPPING, FOOD, AND OF COURSE PANCAKES(PANCAKE HOUSE MY DAUGHTERS FAVORITE). WE TOPPED IT OF WITH A RELAXING DIP IN THE HOT TUB WATCHING THE SUN SIT OVER THE MOUNTAINS…….. WELL AS RELAXING AS IT GETS WITH A 10YR AND 5 YR OLD SWIMMING AROUND(LOL)

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OK ……. NOW I’M UPSET WITH MYSELF I GAIN WEIGHT WHILE I WAS GONE (4 DAYS) EXPECTED…NOT EXPECTING TOM WHEN WE RETURNED HOME SO JUST IMAGINE THE # ON THE SCALE FOR A MINUTE ………………………………………………………..

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NOW DOUBLE IT.

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I HAVE WORK HARD THIS WEEK TO GET IT OFF AND HAVE SUCCEED  YES, I’M BACK TO WERE I WAS WHEN I LEFT, BUT HAVE NOT MOVED. I NEED HELP TO GET THE SCALE MOVING IT HAS BEEN 3 WEEKS AT THE SAME WEIGHT AND I’M UPSET, BUT STILL HAPPY I HAVE KEPT 13 LBS OFF.

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I LEAVE YOU ALL WITH TGIF………… HAVE A GREAT WEEKENDS BUDDIES !!!!!!!!!

I EARNED MY FIRST RED STAR AND AT THE SAME TIME REACH MY FIRST MINI GOAL.I COULD NOT BELIEVE  MY EYES WHEN I SEEN 208 ON THE SCALE. THEN I COULDN’T  SEE THE NUMBERS MY EYES BEGAIN FILLING UP WITH TEARS. I HAVE NOT BEEN BELOW 210 SEENS LAST SUMMER WHEN WE RETURNED FROM VACATION.

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I HAVE WORKED SO HARD  AND I WILL WORK EVEN HARDED THIS UP COMING WEEK. WE ARE GOING TO GATLINBERG EASTER WEEK AND I’M REALLY WORRIED I WILL BLOW IT I PROMISE TO ALL THE HOTTIES WHEN I’M AWAY I WILL WATCH MY CARB INTAKE,  I WILL TRY TO FIND A PLACE TO WALK I’M NOT REALLY SURE WHERE OUR CHALET IS LOCATED, AND I WILL WATCH HOW MUCH I DRINK. I’M ON VACATION YOU KNOW I’M GOING TO DRINK SOME.

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I HOPE EVERYONE ENJOYS THE REST OF THE WEEKEND HAVAE A GREAT DAY.

I HAVE HAD IT WITH MY FAMILY. I LOVE THEM ALL ,BUT I’M READY TO DIVORCE THEM.

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MY PARENTS SPLIT 3 YEARS AGO AND I HAVE HAD TO DEAL WITH A LOVE TRIANGLE SINCE. I’M TIRED OF HOLDING THEM UP AND TRING TO KEEP THIS FAMILY  TOGETHER.

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WHERE IS THAT STRONG INDEPENDANT WOMEN WHO RAISED ME ? WHERE DID SHE GO?WHY DOES SHE THINK SHE HAS TO SHARE A MAN?

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THE HELL WITH MY DAD I HAVEN’T HEARD FROM HIM , AND DON’T WANT TO. WHERE DOES HE GET OFF TREATING THESE WOMEN THE WAY HE DOES ? WHERE IS THAT MAN WHO TOLD ME NEVER TO STAND FOR A MAN WHO DOES NOT TREAT ME LIKE THE QUEEN I AM?

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WELL GUESS WHAT HERE SHE IS AND SHE IS COMING OUT. I’AM FINDING THE COURAGE AND STRENGH TO CUT THEM OFF. I HAVE MY FAMILY TO CARE FOR I HAVE TWO CHILDERN WITH LEARNING DISABILTIES AND NO MORE TIME FOR THIS TEENAGE SH!#!!!!

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I HAVE TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF AND DEALING WITH THEM I’M NOT FINDING TIME FOR ME. IT ENDS TODAY SORRY MOM,BUT YOU HAVE A SHRINK TURN TO HER .

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I KNOW THIS SOUNDS COLD, BUT I HAVE ONLY TOLD YOU 1/10 OF THE STORY. I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF ME!

   OK YOU GOT US THIS WEEK CONGRATS BLUE’S

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 I’M PICKING UP MY CAPE FROM THE DRY CLEANERS THIS EVENING AND PUTTING MY WORKOUT IN HIGH GEAR

I THINK MY BELLY IS SMALLER I DON’T FEEL AS BLOATED , AND  I THINK MY LEGS HAVE LESS DIMPLES I JUST WISH MY BUTT WOULD FOLLOW THEIR LEAD.

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WELL BUDDIES I LOST 5 LBS. THIS WEEK WORKED HARD STUCK TO MY DIET AND CUT THE FOOD OUT BY 7:30. I DRANK SO MUCH WATER I WAS UP A COUPLE OF TIMES EACH NIGHT RUNNING TO THE BATHROOM.I HAVEN’T DONE THAT SINCE I WAS PREGNANT.

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I HAVE PLANS FOR THIS WEEK I’M STEPPING IT UP!!! YES, THAT’S RIGHT IT IS GOING TO BE IN THE 70′S BY TUESDAY ,AND I’M READY TO WEAR SHORTS. SMALL PROBLEM I CAN’T GET INTO ANY OF THEM .

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SO, MY GOAL IS CARDIO 45MINS.  EVERYDAY SHOULD NOT BE A PROBLEM I LOVE GETTING  OUTSIDE WHEN IT IS PRETTY. I HAVE GOT TO GET THE WEIGHTS IN I’M SHOOTING FOR 2 DAYS.

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MY DIET– MORE VEGGIES, AND PROTEIN

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HERE I GO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY

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“HOTTIE ROCK”